~SiLeNt MoMeNt ~

blogger:
yesterday i went to sunway lagoon....i having fun there...
is true....
but it rains...lol...
half fun gone 4 it....
i...
dunno y....
i feel like....
he shall not wait 4 me....
1 year...
my frens said..
"wat?!..i year? too long le ba!"
i dunno...
my mind suddenly come out that 1 year....
i think he can find someone better den me...
but y..he said he can wait until my spm over?
i even giv him sign....
we back to normal frens...
he dun wan....
blogger..u know?
the moment i told him 'we back to normal frens...ok?"
my heart ....very very hurt...
i even wat to take back my words...
can i ?
i dun think i can....
i even wan to tell him...
i really need u....
if 1 day he leave me...
i wont say anything..
because...he really found someone better....
i...am not a good girl at all...
i am ...truly bad...
i m blur....
forgetful...
i know my physical appearance is the worst among my frens...
everytime....he said u r better dne many frens...
i dun think so...
i feel that he juz is to make me happier...

these days..
i dunno wat happen to my mum....
she...gt angry easily....
maybe her mood not so good...
den ..nvm la...
but everytime....y dun she giv me compliment...
giv me support?
i really need her support...
i always ask opinion from her...
she is my idol actually...
i always respect her...
i admit....
gt a few times i talk loudly to her....
she that time dun like me anymore..but that time i was really moody...
after that i was so sorry....
i tell myself....
i muz be more independent...
anything only myself will know....
my fren...his name L...
he know i gt many problem keep inside my heart....
he even tell me ...
dun keep everything inside ur heart...
say it out....
u will feel better....
i feel very touching...
my tears...
i cant control...
sometimes...i hope L is him....
i hope he will understand my mind....
even sometimes i din treat him well..
i really hope he understands the purpose i did it....
blogger...
luckily i hav a gang of frens...
they giv me happy moment...
they care 4 me...most of the time...
i...
wat they had done....
i really appreciate it...
thx^^...


13/11/2008
1.15pm