~SiLeNt MoMeNt ~

today i have no homework to do, i am happy of course,
but i meet an incident that carve a deep sign in my mind..it is so embarrassing.
as usual once the bell rang i will straight away rush to the gate,
but today i am using another way round, i was stopped by the prefects.
i thought they don't know about the school rules,
i told them, they explained to me.
again i strongly proved that i was correct,
but after that i failed...
i never embarrassed of my failure, instead i should not talk so rude to them since they are younger than me!
i am a loser indeed!!
so, my junior, i am so sorry for my rudeness,
please forgive me..
thank you ..

7/7/2009/
1.56pm

4 months approaching SPM,
honestly, i am so worry about myself.
i study day and night,
but i seldom pass with flying colours,
every time i saw my result,
i felt like i was in hot sup right now.
everyone, my friends..
they are getting ready to battle with spm,
but what about me?
i study so hard..but my work never paid.
i know i shouldn't complain about it,
because god decides everything..
so i have to wait for the opportunities to come.

at the same time,
i am going to leave my school soon,
my friends...maybe some..
they have their own plan,
they have planed everything,
but i was like a ship in the middle of the sea..i lost my direction...
no compass, no current to drive me to my destinations.
my mum...she encourage me to be an accountant,
i love account honestly, but i don't like the OL life, and that is the point.
i wish to be a nurse...
everyone, my parents, my relatives, my friends are so surprised..
they thought i am joking with them.
i said :"NO, NOT JOKING"
they turn to a serious face and look at me..
why don't you be a doctor?
i don't know, i just want to be a nurse.

4/7/2009
7.23pm