~SiLeNt MoMeNt ~

today i have no homework to do, i am happy of course,
but i meet an incident that carve a deep sign in my mind..it is so embarrassing.
as usual once the bell rang i will straight away rush to the gate,
but today i am using another way round, i was stopped by the prefects.
i thought they don't know about the school rules,
i told them, they explained to me.
again i strongly proved that i was correct,
but after that i failed...
i never embarrassed of my failure, instead i should not talk so rude to them since they are younger than me!
i am a loser indeed!!
so, my junior, i am so sorry for my rudeness,
please forgive me..
thank you ..

7/7/2009/
1.56pm

4 months approaching SPM,
honestly, i am so worry about myself.
i study day and night,
but i seldom pass with flying colours,
every time i saw my result,
i felt like i was in hot sup right now.
everyone, my friends..
they are getting ready to battle with spm,
but what about me?
i study so hard..but my work never paid.
i know i shouldn't complain about it,
because god decides everything..
so i have to wait for the opportunities to come.

at the same time,
i am going to leave my school soon,
my friends...maybe some..
they have their own plan,
they have planed everything,
but i was like a ship in the middle of the sea..i lost my direction...
no compass, no current to drive me to my destinations.
my mum...she encourage me to be an accountant,
i love account honestly, but i don't like the OL life, and that is the point.
i wish to be a nurse...
everyone, my parents, my relatives, my friends are so surprised..
they thought i am joking with them.
i said :"NO, NOT JOKING"
they turn to a serious face and look at me..
why don't you be a doctor?
i don't know, i just want to be a nurse.

4/7/2009
7.23pm

yesterday, 25 june 2009, i had a great experience in my life,
maybe all of you might say i am crazy, but i think it is memorable..
tell you what happen:
yesterday, my friends and i went to tesco to buy something for selling in this saturday.
well, going to tesco..things are not suitable, prices too expensive.
then we went to gaint to hunt cheaper food..
we found and we went back.
but, gosh! i was thinking how to go back!
i say good bye to my friends..
i wait for bus at bus stop.
seeing no bus, i walked further and wait for the bus.
i run and run, in the hot sun, sweating...
finally i get the bus!
but i felt very angry and i as going to burn into flame by that time..
the bus tickect reciever collect RM 1 from me, instead it is only RM 0.70 only!!
haiz..
i try to talk to her..i pura pura ask her, taht stupid lady!!
alright fine..
juz forget about it..

26/6/2009
10.55pm

i like dreaming,
if possible, i would like to dream for my whole life.
however, it is impossible.
but i always dream of a perfect guy as my boy friend..
haha! funny right?
perfect guy hard to get, and there is no 100% fulfill my taste.
oh! where is my hot green tea?
i like the smell of coffee, but i don't like to drink it.
so, i prefer green tea.
and i am waiting for that green tea. ^^

i always dream of my achievement in SPM,
i do well,
but i seldom study and i get straight A's !
haha! impossible again..
so, better study now before late!
good luck my friends!
all the best! =)


10/6/2009
1.50pm

today, my friends and i go to IOI mall.
initially, we plan to watch Night at the museum 2,
but..the time is not suitable.
never mind,
then we watch 17 Again.
it is a nice movie because there is a handsome guy.
lol...
at the end of the movie,
i told my friends :" hey, that guy is so yeng!"
my friend told me, there is a guy looking at me.
i confused, why is he looking at me?
oh..you know?
the reason he looking at me is..i say Zac is so yeng..
honestly, he is handsome and yeng,
i wonder is he using a weird expression to look at me?
lol, i am praising him..
every girls will totally agree..
i would like to ask that guy..
you disagree with me?
or..
you think you are more handsome than him?
or..
am i talking too loud?
=_=

account,
i am here not to say i regret to take it for my spm,
i just don't know what tittle to be put.
so, just put that lame tittle.

last week, friday,
i went back to my hometown at ipoh.
all my relatives went back that time,
but not all..
some of my cousin did not go back.
i felt a bit..
disappointed.
it seems our distance become very very far..
my eldest cousin,
she going to marry..
well, taking about marriage,
i have no confidence towards it.
yesterday, i read a passage about the husband has a lady outside,
and his wife has a man outside. ( i don't know whether you understand or not, just hope you will understand ^^)
a perfect marriage, all are not as perfect as what it had shown on the tv,
sometimes, it may happen something we unexpected.
since you like him/her, why you want to get another man/lady outside?
you don't like your wife/husband?
he/she not good to you?
i just cannot understand.
maybe..it is good to be single.

ok..back to just now.
my mother suggested to have a BBQ at my hometown,
last time..i don't like to go back,
the reason..(you may laugh at me)..
is..my mother will always scold me for not helping her at the kitchen,
i not to say she is wrong,
i just a bit ashame as she always scold me in front of my aunties and uncles,
then they laugh at me,
i don't like !
honestly, i don't like to entertain people,
but my relatives treat me like a clown,
they happy,
i smile at them, pretending i was happy,
i don't know, i really really hate it.
i know, if there is people, there will be gossip,
i just don't understand why they like to gossip,
i really..stressful..


sin ying
3/6/2009
2.13pm

if one day..
you become a mother..
will you be touched by your child or children when they give you a card, kiss you and say "happy Mothers' day, mum...I love you.."
hmm..well there's two types of people in this world..
1. enthusiastic, friendly(good term)
2. cold, cruel, stern(bad term)

honestly, i don't like my friend's mother who is also my teacher..
i can't say she is bad..like cruel just i don't like her way to lecture me..
i am keen to know..why do people like to lecture other people?
example:
1. mother/ father lecture son/daughter
2. teacher lectures students
3. boss lectures the workers
4. in the jail..normally nobody will lecture you but they cane you..

anyway..what do you prefer?
if possible..i don't want both..
haha..
my answer same with yours?

my mum..i can't say she is the best ..
but compare to my friends my neighbor..
i feel that i was lucky to born in this family and be her daughter..
as you know..
God create human..
there's no 100% prefect human just like our exam..
if a person has around 80% good term..
then he is a good person..
i think my mum has this..
and i believe all of your mum have this feature..
if not she will just throw you away after you were born..
but they never do so..
because she loves you as a son or daughter..

so..in conjunction with Mothers' day...
i would like to say " sorry" to my mum..
sorry for shouting at you..
and i would like to say a few words that will not come out from my mouth..
"Mum, i love you.."